It’s true, I haven’t done so well getting my blog
written. I even had one very dear friend
tell me that she removed me from her “favorites” on the basis of lack of
activity or rather no activity. In her
defense, a couple of weeks prior, she did (somewhat) nonchalantly mention that
she hadn’t seen a post from me in a while…a very long while. This blog is for
her, with love.
My calendar is usually pretty full and there isn’t a lot of
down time. This drives my husband and
sometimes my kids and close friends a little nuts. My good friend *Rhonda described it perfectly when she wrote, “I am
aware that for some, I need to slow down.” Wow, right? I LOVED reading that line. I wrote it down. I read it over and over
because finally I knew that someone else gets it.
Just to be clear, I am not a “yes girl”. I am very selective about what goes on my
calendar. Usually, having my calendar full makes me feel joyful and enthusiastic.
But every once in a while, I start to feel…well…exhausted. This is exactly what happened to me a couple
of months ago.
Then one day, I opened up my calendar and I took a deep a
breath (okay it was more of a gasp), and I deleted something. I felt a little space
(deep breath), so I deleted something else and continued this process until I
felt like I had a whole lot of space.
And then, I used the space to (get ready for this)…nap and just BE.
It was in that space that I remembered (quite vividly) a little panic
attack that I had upon turning the age of forty. The panic attack involved the thought that I
had lived half of my life and that I still had so much to do and see. I decided
right then and there that there was no more time to lose. I had to get moving…I had to get doing. That was five years ago, no
wonder I was tired.
I am working on a little bit of a slowdown mode right
now. I am not very good at it. I was
even a little worried about it so I consulted with Dr. Christi, my good friend
and life coach. After asking a few
questions, she assured me that I am still working on growth and living in joy
and that there are times when we just have to enjoy what we have created so far.
My calendar is still relatively full but I am trying to
leave some breathing room and I think that it may take a little bit more time for
me to master the balance (maybe this could be my goal). But here is what I have
discovered so far:
Slowing down for me means deleting random emails that I know are invites
for adventure (something I love) without reading them. It means waiting 24 hours before
committing to more. It means looking at my
calendar and really being mindful of back to back to back events. It means slowing down my movements because time
really does slow down when I am not rushing about. It means that things don’t
have to be perfect. It means that it’s okay to be late or to leave early. It
means that naps are acceptable and encouraged. It means that open space doesn’t
have to be filled and blogs can wait.
It means that good enough really is good enough.
Wishing you love, adventure and space.
~
© Brenda
*Rhonda
Scharf, CSP – For more information on Rhonda click here
**Dr. Christi – For more information on Dr. Christi click here
